Slightly Under House Arrest day 87

We are all constantly changing and evolving. Hoping we can improve on who we are or were. Not always succeeding but hopefully always trying. I've come a long way, and I have a long way to go. I'm not always perfect and I still let people get under my skin. I do try, and I  avoid those people. I had a friend request from someone from my past the other day, it wasn't someone who had done me any harm, but it was also someone who hadn't done me any good either. I rejected it. I have let some people back into my life, who in same time frame had done me no harm, and had tried and failed to do me some good. I wasn't receptive at that time to any help. My fault mainly, but ( and no, I'm not making any excuses) I was dealing with a lot. But I wasn't easy to be around and I shut down quicker than the pubs did over lockdown. It left me suspicious and wary of everyone except a handful of people... Although I'm in a better place now, with a lot more people that I like and trust, I still hold back and watch and wait before I open up. Lockdown made me realise that I like a lot more interaction with people than I thought I did. It's also shown me the people I don't need, and by that I'm not being nasty, it's just opened my eyes to those I give lip service too, not  bad people, just bad for me. As my time becomes more precious, I will spend less time pleasing others and pleasing myself. If I choose to spend time with you it will be because I want to. I've wasted too much time on the wrong people. That doesn't make them bad people, just not for me. I hope this outbreak, pandemic, has made us all take stock and want to adjust our lives to benefit our own lives.