Back Under House Arrest day 244

Another busy day, washing done first then we had this month's covid tests. That swab makes your throat sore, or maybe it the fact that you retch so much because you have to shove it down your throat as far as you can. 

Other than that it was a quiet enough day, everything is done now, the cake is ordered for Christmas, should arrive next Wednesday. Everything wrapped and ready to go. I've bought Crackers this year rather than make my own. I think the amount I made last year put me off. I did make some this time but for a friend. But last year I made 48 for other people and our four, it was a lot of work. So this year I thought better of it and found some unusual ones at our place. 

I must admit though, I'm feeling a little down right now. The whole Covid thing seems hopeless, yes they've "found" a vaccine, but there is a lot of stuff that doesn't make sense. We heard a scientist on one of the news channels saying that they had been working on a vaccine since January 2020. However, we weren't told about Covid properly until March, so they knew back then that it was getting out of hand. Too much is being covered up. Yesterday Boris was going on about us all having a Merry Little Christmas with the emphasis on the little. Lovely, but can you see them ( government, MPs etc) having one? No... They'll do a Domonic Cummings and drive home for celebrations with extended family because it's one rule for them and one rule for us. 

To be honest, it doesn't affect us as we only go to Sue's and that one other household. The limit is supposed to be 3, but they are saying 2 would be safer. I feel sorry for the older generation who have spent all bloody year cut off from seeing loved ones. Only to be sidelined again, because it's safer to leave them out of it. But what if it's that older person very last Christmas anyway? Or anyone's for that matter? None of us knows this could be mine. 

And this is how my brain is working at the moment, and this is why I'm not coping well. I try and remain positive, I try not to read or watch too much news, there is a line between knowing what I need to and knowing too much. Conspiracy theorists and theories make my head spin, while most of it is in the realms of science fiction, there might be a nugget of truth mixed in. But if I go down that route I'll need a rubber room. And you can't tell some people, that while I understand their viewpoint and their right to it, I do not want those ideas and theories bouncing around in my head thank you very much otherwise it might just make lying down and shutting my eyes permanently a very attractive solution.