In Between Days

Saturday.

Hot and humid. 

Busy around 10 am onwards, but you have to take the fact that the kids are off and they tend to come in later. 

Showers, so heavy that the drops bounced back up. 

Luckily by the time we left it held off until we made it home. We again made the 33 a much nicer ride home... That's thanks to Jane Dawe for shutting my checkout in time, as we wouldn't have made it if not.

We had an early night as both of us were knackered. 

Sunday 

A mixed bag of a day, slow start, hectic at the end, we made it just in time for the bus, but I forgot my flowers that one of my regular customers had bought me, it was too close to the bus coming in order to go back, so hopefully Jane can have them if they are still there in the morning. 

It's nice to know we are on holiday next week and this time next week I will turn 60! Blimey, where have the last ten years gone? I know something though they've been a lot calmer than the ten before that, and I'm certainly happier, yes we've had some hard moments, but on the whole we made the best decision to leave Burton and come to Nottingham, and although I wish we'd come sooner, the time was right, because it worked out for us. We have the peace we didn't even know we wanted. I saw a quote online that struck a cord with me and it made me think about what time I have left on the planet. 

You are responsible for how long what hurt you haunt you. It's time to put all that we've been through in the past to rest and enjoy the time we have. I liked it so much I've put it in my dyalog as a reminder... 

The other quote I found is more along the lines of self empowerment, but is just as relevant for me, as its one of my worst traits. I always have been a people pleaser, putting other peoples wants and needs above mine. I guess that stems from a childhood tip toeing around a mentally unstable Mother. The quote reads, You are not required to set yourself on fire to keep others warm. It's something I need to stop doing. I need to stop putting others first now and do what suits me. There are very few that would put me first, and that's my own fault. I've always taught people that I come second by my natural put others first trait. Time for me to learn to stop doing it. It's going to be hard, because it's ingrained in me, but this next year if I'm granted it, I will start doing stuff for me, and less of what is expected of me.