In Between Days

Wednesday. 

I've not done a blog for a few days, I learned a few years back that venting my feelings isn't always the best policy. Bottling it up isn't either, but, the best way is to do an Elsa and 'let it go'. 

You aren't going to change someone who doesn't see any problem in their behaviour. All you can do is change your expectations of that/those person(s) and know what to expect. It's healthier to chuck it in the fuck it bucket than carry it around eating at your peace. Nothing will change, you can't force someone to care about you, or put you before someone else if that's what you mean to them, let them to it. 

Which, also applies to what I've just done, which is fill my exit survey in for work online. They won't like the answers I gave them, it won't change anything, they will just dismiss my points as written by an embittered old lady. Still, got it all of my chest. Named names etc. Made me feel better at least. 

It's taken me 62 years on this planet to realise the only person in charge of your happiness is you. You have to make you happy. 

In other news, I had more blood tests on Monday, I dare say they'll be in touch if there's owt wrong. Met with Sue and Pete Tuesday for lunch at O'Neil's ( Slug and Lettuce not cutting it for the price, food choice, and the fact that some of the loos are out of order still, even after a four week refurbishment closure) so we have moved our meet up venue. 

I've ordered a treadmill for the coming months when going out walking might become difficult, icy conditions are my nemesis, but, I still want to get my steps in, joining a gym wouldn't help because that would still mean having to get there in bad weather. Having something I can use at home is a better option. It should help Kev too, as if he doesn't move he seizes up after a weekend at work bless him. Getting old is no joke, but not getting old isn't an option as far as I am concerned anyway. All you can do is try and help yourself. 

We also bought new pillows as the others were past their best, I hadn't realised how long we had had them! Mind you, they weren't cheap so at least we had our moneys worth. Might take a couple of nights to get used to them.